I’m back – And it’s August

Wow. Well, it’s been a few months. My last time on here was January? Time (and life) just slipped away from me. But I’m back. Currently madly in love with my husband and my children (as usual) and working on my health and wellness. Oh, and looking for a house to live in. I have been having some thyroid issues that I am seeing an NMD for and I am finally starting to feel myself again. Thank you, Jesus.

Since January the girls have grown so much. Chloe is 15 months now and Sienna just started her second year of preschool. It is nice to have alone time with Chloe to really get to know her personality and give her one-on-one attention. She is so tenacious and silly and loving. We had her first birthday luau in May. It was windy as hell and chaotic! But we still had fun celebrating Chloe. Sienna got her first stitches (on her lip) and was so brave. She grew some butterflies and we had a butterfly release party a few days after her hospital visit because I still felt bad for her. She LOVED the release party and still talks about it every time she sees an orange butterfly.

Mom and dad took a trip to Park City, Utah, for a few days and had an amazing time. We took the girls on our first out-of-state family trip and surprised Grandma for her birthday in Arizona. We took Sienna on her first camping trip! Chloe stayed back with Grandma. Si slept in a tent with us and was barefoot the whole weekend. She had the best time ever.

I convinced Scott to agree to sell our house in the middle of the worst buyer’s market ever. We had multiple offers and sold our house in one weekend, which is great, but we are currently still on the hunt for our next home four months later while renting this one back. What was I thinking. The market for a buyer is INSANE. We are still trying to stay positive and keep our heads up, but starting to get a litttle nervous as it gets closer to December. Sometimes I get scared and down on myself, but then sometimes I remind myself you have to take big risks to get big rewards. Let’s just hope we get that reward!

I am tempted to say the world is falling apart, but I know our day to day life is still pretty normal. Covid is still here, and here to stay. Vaccine mandates are starting to roll out. We may have some big decisions to make in the near future, but maybe not. Only time will tell. Scott and I took a 30 day no drinking break. And then I took a 30 day no social media break shortly after. I really feel like both of those things had a positive impact on me. It took some discipline, especially for the alcohol part, but when it was time to reintroduce both things, I didn’t feel like I even needed to. Which was a great outcome. I didn’t realize how good the social media break was for me until I got back on Instagram. I am in a place now where I am not constantly checking updates or news events, I am able to see things and not feel immediate reactions, but rather just process and keep moving, and I don’t feel like I need to share everything on there. I am glad I took time away from both, and I plan to make that an annual thing.

I am still trying to figure out what my intentions are on this thing. Do I want it to be my online journal, a place for family to see updates, a place where I write to my girls for them to see later? I’m not sure exactly what I want yet. Still working that out. I feel more private lately, but I also still feel like I am getting back to my old self while working on this thyroid stuff and I still have LOTS of rambling thoughts in my head. So for now, I guess, this will stay my safe space while I navigate life.

“Train your mind to see the good in everything. Positivity is a choice. The happiness of your life depends on the quality of your thoughts.”

GRATITUDE: I am grateful to live in the U.S. I am grateful for my husband and the connection we share. I am grateful for my perfect children. I am grateful for my health.